The last three weeks have been the most unusual of my life. On March 15, COVID-19 invaded our shores and put our whole country on pause. It was one thing for it to be out there lurking beyond our borders; which still made us nervous, but to find out that it was suddenly in our midst, sucked our breath away and set our hearts racing....well mine anyway.
Talk about paranoid, that is me. The moment the news came, I developed a heaviness in my chest and my mind began questioning every cough, every sneeze and I was checking my temperature every time the thought of Corona crossed my mind, (which was often), or I got a tickle in my throat. I felt as if I was going from nervous to insane.
The caution is that persons over 60 and with underlying conditions are especially vulnerable and since I live with relatives who fit all of the criteria, I am doubly anxious and careful. Yet I know that as a believer, I should not be fearful, and I would love to tell you that I am not, but the truth is, I have a lot of anxious moments. I can also tell you though, those moments are forcing me to pray more, to lean more on the strength of my Lord, to hide deeper in Him to seek the comfort that only He can give me. When I am most afraid, I draw upon my belief that God is the one who created this universe and set everything in motion, and therefore He has total control over everything. That gives me the comfort that He is greater than this unseen enemy and therefore can take it all away in an instant, if that is His will.
And so I pray. I pray night and day since the beginning. At the beginning, my prayers were of desperation, pleading with God for His mercy and protection. And then a few days ago, my prayer changed. My feelings changed. I still have concerns over the situation, but the feeling of desperation has turned to hope. I can't explain it but one day as I was about to pray, the Holy Spirit whispered that I should begin thanking God for the cure. It was like a light came on and my spirit became lighter. I know that there is no known cure as yet, but we have asked God - some of us have cried out for forgiveness for ourselves and for our country, and are putting Him back in His rightful place, on the throne of our lives, and I believe that in the fullness of time, the Lord will answer and heal our land 2 Chronicles 7:14.